Unquestionable Tears

God,
Am I alright?
Am I doing the right thing?
Am I on Your path?

God
Am I going crazy?
Am I too much on everything?
Am I still who I am?

And I cried it out
Let it be and I surrender to you
I know You listen, listen, listen.
I vent all my pain to you.
My unquestionable tears.

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The Things I Have To Take

Cannot sleep tonight (again). Wish for this, bitch at that. My future seems like one big past. The only thing left for me is You, Jesus. Please let me know if the things I did and I will, is real. Jesus, it never ends. If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it. Just give a courage and wisdom, I'm stronger than this, but it felt like it's too much. Tell me the reality is better than the dreams. Too much duality words included. Don't care. I love you, GOD. Tuhan, terima kasih.

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Forward For Future

I'm losing my interest in writing this blog. Maybe too much things in my mind. It's like a cancer that cannot be cured. It contaminating every single thing in my body. It's like a DVD player that slowing down. Whether the battery is running out or even it's a problem with the DVD player itself. Sometimes I imagine my life just like a movie DVD to be played. We can push the "Stop" button and hit "Rewind", watching the past and everything on the track. But you can't rewrite it for the sake of changing the story. One thing I get with this thing is just let the DVD written, let it be done. Get another blank DVD to complete the past DVDs with a more great story in it. You can put another positive things to carry on your life. The past is history but the more important is the future. Forward For Future! Cheers!.

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